Amy Lu's View

I wore a dress today.*

This seems worth noting because it was the first time I’ve worn a dress since March 12, and I used to wear dresses (or skirts) just about every day. I wore dresses because for me they were easy, comfortable, and made me feel good. I didn’t have to wear dresses, or even get that dressed up, for work, and seldom wore super dressy or professional dresses.

I think it’s worth acknowleding that I used to wear dresses and now I don’t, not because I’m sad that I don’t wear dresses anymore, but just because it’s a tangible sign of change. I could still wear dresses, particularly my casual, comfortable ones, if it makes me happy–even if I don’t leave the house or see people besides Chad in person. And maybe I will, especially now that the weather is getting warmer.

I like wearing dresses, but I’ve also discovered the perks of wearing pants, including what can best be desribed as lounge pants. Recently, I’ve become rather obsessed with finding clothes that make me feel like I’m not wearing pajamas, but that I can also wear on short, mid-day runs. I’m so much more likely to fit a run in if I don’t have to change my clothes.

Luckily, I’ve discovered that my preferred bra (which I discovered before COVID) can successfully be worn on a run, even though it’s not a sports bra. #SmallBustPerks. (These mid-day runs without a clothes change will probably not be possible when the weather gets too much warmer).

Another advantage of not regularly wearing dresses is I have a ton of t-shirts that have been languishing in my closet (or drawers, laundry basket, storage bin, etc.) Yes, for someone who doesn’t wear t-shirts very often, I have any amazing number of them–race t-shirts, concert t-shirts, superhero t-shirts, and now I feel accomplished when they get worn.

I do miss getting all dolled-up for a night out, and wearing a girlie-girl sexy frou frou ensemble. And again, I know I could still do this for an at home date-night if it makes me happy–but getting dolled-up is also a pain in the ass, so thus far, I’ve been skipping it.

The details of my daily life have changed significantly in the last two months. Some changes stress me out and make me sad, some I like, many do all of these things at once. I can’t necessarily make sense of these changes or find deeper meaning in them, but I can at least notice them and how they make me feel.

I primarily do this by blogging and drinking… some things haven’t changed.

*…for only a few hours during Zoom church. I purchased it in the Before Times but today was its inaugural wearing.